Prayer and Transitions

It's been a very slow couple of weeks since my last blog. I can't believe that May is already almost over. Other than trying to make it through the last month of work before summer, I have spent a lot of time either in my head lost in thought or talking it out with God. I've been feeling a bit stuck and have struggled to see ways to move forward. Thankfully, God is always there to talk things through with. Prayer is such a huge blessing. I don't know what I'd do without it. I can take every fear and fret, every hope and dream, and turn it into a prayer. Prayer is there for my strength and sustenance. And when my brain feels too foggy, that's okay. He knows. I can let His Spirit and the prayers of His people intercede for me.

Romans 8:26 is one of my favorite verses! To know that when I have no words to pray, the Holy Spirit is interceding on my behalf is a great comfort to me. I am in a time of transition. Transition=Transformation (even when it just feels like chaos). Through every single transition I've gone through, God has done a major work in my heart. He's peeled back a layer of my soul and revealed truths about Himself and myself. Those truths are my treasures, the pearls of transformation in my life. Knowing that I am in transition, I remain open to new truths revealed about God and myself. It's not easy and it feels like chaos a lot of the time, but I'm learning to let go of the chaos, set aside my to-do list, and connect with God. Instead of getting lost in the chaos, I must stop and connect. My connectedness to God matters far more than my to-do list. My connectedness to those I love matters far more than my to-do list. Things will eventually come together. I will make it to Thailand one day. It may not be when I want it to happen, but that doesn't matter. I must connect to God and others. I must be intentional in seeking that connectedness and be aware of the opportunities to connect as they present themselves to me. I think that genuine spirituality is always on some level or in some way about letting go. I don't often have expectations. I prefer to live without to minimize disappointment and enjoy things as they are. Unfortunately for me, setting a goal for a launch date was like setting a BIG expectation. I have had to let go of that expectation and place it in God's hands. Letting go frees up a great amount of soul-energy that liberates a level of life I didn't know existed. Now, if I can just leave it in God's hands instead of constantly snatching it back and feeling the disappointment all over again!

In other news, I continue to learn and practice the Thai alphabet! I've learned many consonants and some vowels! One of the craziest things about the Thai alphabet to me is that there can be up to 3 or 4 different letters which make the SAME sound!! Can you imagine trying to pass a spelling test in Thai? I will just have to know which letter goes to which words!! I am very thankful for the friend who is teaching me and being patient with me in this learning process!

Also, Monday starts the last week of the school year and then I'm on summer break!! Woohoo!!! I will be heading to Arlington for the Special Olympics Track and Field State meet on Thursday. That's a four day trip with some of our high school athletes. It's usually a blast and I'm looking forward to it! Especially since it will probably be the last year I get to go.

Wrapping things up, the thing I'm looking forward to most this summer is my MTI training in Colorado Springs in July! That's four weeks of intense training to help equip and develop cross-cultural messengers of the gospel! I hope to make lots of new friends, learn TONS, and enjoy the cooler weather and nature of Colorado! What are you looking forward to most this summer?